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« Reply #45 on: June 09, 2009, 10:45 AM »

know, i know, it's been a while since i last posted, and i am truly sorry about that. things have been a bit hectic around here, and have been working a lot recently, when i realised i hadn't updated in a while. especially after i promised i would update more regularly. i'm really sorry guys, and hope you keep reading this story. so here you are-the next chapter...

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"which way?"
"we go back to the tree, and i'll figure it out from there. i have to find her."
"i know and we will."

i just hope we're not too late. Lindsey thought to herself.



Chapter 13.
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the minute the thought entered her mind Lindsey regretted it. she had to stay positive and keep thinking positively, not only for Sara's sake, but for Brooke as well. they needed to find her, and they would and everything would be ok again.

but no matter what she did to shake the negative thoughts that were entering her mind, she couldn't stop thinking and realising that there was quite a big chance that they wouldn't find Brooke alive. for all they knew Brooke could already be dead, and when they found her, they would just be finding her body. if that happened, Lindsey knew that Sara might, actually probably would never recover. we have to find her alive, we just have to...." Lindsey thought to herself.


i don't know how long i was out for, whether it was hours or mere minutes. i had no way of knowing. all i did know was that the pain was still there. i guess it was wishful thinking and foolish to think the pain would go away, just because i laid down for a bit. i tried to sit up but i couldn't. it just hurt too much. i was exhausted but determined not to stay there. i needed to get up again. i tried to at least sit up again and again but i just couldn't. the pain got worse and worse every time i tried. i don't know how long i tried to get up, well more like try and sit up, but eventully i had to face reality- i wasn't going anywhere. i had to accept that. my head kept telling me to keep trying. despite everything, i had somehow hung on to my logic, i'm not really sure how. however my heart was telling a different story. my heart told me that there was no point- i wasn't going anywhere, so what was the point in keeping on trying. the sooner i realised that, the sooner i would stop fighting it, and the sooner that happened, the sooner the pain would go away. what surprised me the most, was that that thought didn't scare me.

i had been fighting my whole life. fighting to remain invisible; fighting to remain anonymous; fighting my parents; fighting anyone who took an interest in me; fighting not to let anyone in so i wouldn't get hurt. and in the end i ended up fighting Sara, because i had let her in, because i was stupid and naive enough to think she actually cared for me. i let her in, and by doing that my anonymity disappeared. for the first time in my life i was visible. and then in the space of a few minutes i was invisible and alone again. and in that moment i knew i once again had to disappear and once again become invisible and anonymous.

the irony is when i was fighting before in my life, no matter who or what it was, i was fighting for my life. the life i had  become attached to and was comfortable with. the life where i was invisible and anonymous. now i stopped fighting for that life. i was instead welcoming death. i could remain invisible and anonymous just how i liked to be, how i had lived my life. even better was i wasn't going to leave anyone in pain.

nobody was going to miss me or grieve for me, and as tragic as it sounds- that thought filled me with comfort. no-one was going to suffer when i died. after all, if you were invisible and had no-one like i did, who would be left behind? you can't be grieved for or missed when you have no-one in your life to grieve for you or miss you after you're gone.

i don't really have any regrets. it may sound weird, but i liked how my life was. i liked being the invisible one; the anonymous one; the one that no-one would remember; the on no-one knew and the one that would be forgotten.

that may sound sad and tragic and maybe even a little bit upsetting but that was my life. i know that some may find that difficult to understand but actually it's very simple. i liked being alone and anonymous and invisible. that's how i came into the world, and it is how i will leave it. and the circle of my is complete.

i close my eyes and let the world fade away, knowing that i will never see it again. the ground i am lying on isn't comfortable, but i don't care. it won't be long until the world fades away forever as i leave it- alone, invisible and anonymous......


they had been walking for quite a while now- Sara, Lindsey and Catherine. Brass and Grissom were following. Brass was giving updates to Nick and Greg who were in the choppers every so often. sometimes he asked them to look ahead to see if they were heading in the right direction. not that he didn't trust Sara, he did, but he also knew that the more time that passed, the slimmer that chances were that they would find Brooke alive. so far they hadn't found anything. they were constantly looking at the ground that they were walking on, for any signs of which direction Brooke had headed in. they all knew she couldn't have gone too much further. they had all seen the amount of blood that Brooke had already lost. as time went by, they knew she would only lose more. it was only a matter of time before she lost too much to keep going.


"Mom?"
"yeah honey, what is it?"
"we are going to find her right? alive i mean?" Lindsey whispered.
"of course we are. we'll find her soon." Catherine answered her daughter, and put her arm around her.


Catherine looked up ahead and saw that Sara had walked quite a way up ahead and had then stopped. she was fixated on something on the ground. she and Lindsey hurried up to her.
Catherine looked at her friend and said "what? Sara what is it?"
Sara didn't answer. instead she just pointed to what she was looking at on the ground.
Catherine and Lindsey both looked at what Sara was pointing at and both said at the same time
"oh no"..........



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« Reply #46 on: June 09, 2009, 02:54 PM »

Chapter 14.

"oh no".

"but hang on, isn't this kinda a good thing. i mean i know it's not good, but at least we know we're on the right path. and if we're on the right path, we're closer to finding her right, and taking her back home."

"well yeah, but it also means we are running out of time, and fast. we need to find her, before anything else happens, and before she loses any more blood."

"ok, ok calm down Sara we will..... Sara don't say it. i know what you're thinking and about to say, but don't ok."

"don't say what Cath? don't say that it's my fault? it is. i let her down. i promised her i wasn't like her parents and everyone else who had caused her hurt during her life, but that's what i ended up doing. i hurt her, and she ran off. it's my fault we're looking for her right now and can't find her. it's my fault her car is now a wreck. it's my fault she's lost all this blood. if she dies it will be my fault. if she's dead when we find her, you might as well have Brass arrest me and throw me in jail for 25 years to life. everything that's happened is my fault."

"no it's not Sara. she made her choice. she chose not to give you the chance to explain. she chose to run off. she didn't know she would wreck her car, she didn't know you would come after her. but she made her choice, she ran. this is not your fault. it's not even Brooke's fault. it's just the way it is."

"listen to me" Catherine said "we will find her. we'll get her to the hospital, they'll treat her and she'll get better, and then you two can talk and work things out. if she still wants to go after that you just have to let her. she has to stand on her own two feet at some point, all you can do is make sure that she knows that you are always there for her and you always will be. we'll find her Sara. and Brass is not gonna arrest you, you didn't kill her. she may not even be dead. ok, so stop thinking like that. you hear me Sidle?"

"yeah, thanks Catherine"

"you're welcome, now come on let's keep going. at least we know we're going in the right direction now."

Grissom and Brass caught up to Catherine, Sara and Lindsey.
"hey are you three ok? why'd you stop?" Grissom asked them. then he saw the look on Sara's face, and the tears in her eyes.

"Sara?" he said putting his hand on her shoulder "are you ok honey?"

Sara turned towards him and smiled weakly "yeah Gil i'm fine. we just found some more blood that's all, and i guess all the guilt and fears and feelings that i had been bottling up just exploded out, and Catherine and Lindsey kinda got the full impact of my rant."

he pulled her into a hug, which she welcomed. "everything's gonna be ok now. we'll find her ok?"

she just nodded against his chest. "i know. at least i hope we do, before it's too late."

Lindsey had walked on ahead. "Mom! Sara!" Lindsey shouted. "you might want to get over here!"

Catherine got there first. "what is it sweetie?"

Lindsey had bent down to pick something up off the ground. "look." she said showing her mom the item she had just picked up from the ground. "is this Brooke's?"

"i don't know sweetie, i never met her. Sara? Lindsey found something. show her Linds." she told her daughter.

Lindsey held out the item that she had picked up only a couple of minutes ago.

"Sara, do you recognise it? i mean is it Brooke's?" Catherine asked.

Sara recognised it immediately. how many times had she seen it before? how many times had Brooke told her the story behind it? "yes" she finally answered quietly. she also knew that Brooke would never take it off. she loved it, it was the only part of her past that she actually liked. the rest she always wanted to forget, but not this.

"her grams gave it to her shortly before she died."

"i thought she hated her family?"

"no she doesn't hate them. she just felt that they were taking her for granted, well her mom and dad anyway. she was really close to her grams before she died, and her grams gave her that necklace because she always loved it ever since she was little, so her grams thought it was only fair that she have it before she died, and have something to remember her by after she was gone. i don't understand though......"

"don't understand what?" Lindsey asked.

"this was her favourite necklace. she rarely took it off. she always wore it. she loves that necklace, she would never leave it anywhere, never." Sara explained.

"well maybe it fell off, and she didn't realise. i mean the clasp isn't that secure. maybe it fell off when she was walking and she didn't realise. i mean that would explain why it was here, and not on her." Lindsey said.

"maybe. listen we have to keep hold of this for her. she needs this back. Lindsey pass it here"

Lindsey passed the necklace over to Sara, who in turn took a closer look at the necklace, and carefully folding the chain she placed it in her pocket. it would remain there until they found Brooke, so that Sara could return it to her.

"let's keep walking."

Catherine once more put her arm around her daughter, and followed behind Sara and Gil who had taken hold of Sara's hand to support her. Jim followed behind with Catherine and Lindsey and sent a quick message to Nick and Greg to let them know what they had found. he also asked them to go ahead of them, to see if they could find Brooke, and let him know where she was. at least if the choppers got to her before they did, the paramedics could at least start to treat her.

a few minutes later they heard the sound of the choppers flying overhead and heading out in front of them continuing on with their search for Brooke.

after a few more miles of walking, Brass got a message from a chopper. it simple said:

keep walking. we just found her, we've told the paramedic chopper where she is. she looks bad. get Sara there as quickly as you can. Brooke's gonna need her. just keep heading in a straight line and you'll see her in about half a mile or so.

Jim quickly read the text, and let Sara know as quickly as possible. Sara let go of Gil's hand as soon as she heard the words we just found her she didn't need to hear anything after that. she ran as fast as she could. after a few minutes she came across Brooke, and as soon as she reached her side, she fell down beside her and grabbed a hold of her hand.......


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« Reply #47 on: June 10, 2009, 07:25 AM »

Great chapters.  Hurry up and find her.

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« Reply #48 on: June 10, 2009, 04:08 PM »

Great chapters.  Hurry up and find her.

There, I have reviewed now write!!!!

ok, ok. next chapter coming up. your reviews are what keep me writing guys, so no reviews=no more chapters. don't know exactly how long this story will be, but will end it when it is right to do so. hope you enjoy.....


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after a few minutes she came across Brooke, and as soon as she reached her side, she fell down beside her and grabbed a hold of her hand.......



Chapter 15.

"Brooke" Sara whispered, as paramedics worked around her.

after a while Sara regained her voice, but not once did she let go of Brooke's hand. she knew that she was probably in the way of the paramedics who were working on her, but at that moment she didn't really care. she knew she had to reach Brooke somehow, she had to let her know that she was there, whether Brooke was aware or not.

a few minutes later, Sara was told to let go so that the medics could lift Brooke and the stretcher she was on into the waiting chopper that would take her to Desert Palm. Sara immediately climbed in with her, stating to them "i'm going with her, no arguments", she could be quite determined when she wanted to be. she wasn't about to let Brooke down again.

once up in the air, Sara took a hold of Brooke's limp hand, and began to talk to her, hoping with eery hope in her body that Brooke would be able to hear her, and that they weren't too late. the medics had already started to put fluids into her to at least start rehydrating her, before they got to the hospital. she was in a bad way, Sara knew that, but she hoped that she would get better, even if the chances were very slim.

"Brooke, it's me Sara. listen i know that you probably can't hear me, but i'm gonna tell you this anyway. and if i have to repeat myself later then i will. you are not to die on me ok. i know you think you're invisible and that no-one cares about you, but you're wrong. you are so wrong. i care about you ok. why do you think i helped you all the times you needed help, or that i answered your calls at insane times in the morning when you called? i did that because i care about you. you have to fight now Brooke, ok, you hear me. you have to fight, don't give in, you have to fight do you hear me?"

suddenly there came a long beeping noise.....

"she's crashing" said one of the paramedics. "starting CPR"

"BROOKE!" shouted Sara, tears falling down from her eyes.

"you'll have to move miss. please let go of her hand."

Sara let go reluctantly and silently. she knew the paramedics needed to do their job and save her, and they couldn't exactly do that with her in the way. she moved so that she was now sitting near the pilot watching helplessly as they started giving Brooke CPR.

"come on Brooke" Sara said silently. "come on, come back to us."

after the longest few minutes of Sara's life the paramedic said "okay, she's back."

"oh thank God" Sara said and sighed with relief. "how long til we get to Desert Palm?" she asked one of the paramedics.

"not long, maybe a few minutes. they know we're coming, so she'll get seen to right away."

"so she's gonna be ok?"

"i don't know. hopefully, but you shouldn't get your hopes up. a case like this, she could go either way."

the tears started to form in her eyes again. "thank you." she said simply.

"if you don't mind me asking ma'am, how do you know her? i mean is she a relative?"

"no. she's just a friend. i was helping her out, and there was a misunderstanding and she took off. and then her car got wrecked and i was really worried about her, so i kept looking for her."

"shouldn't you call her family. i mean wouldn't they want to know?"

"no. i mean she has family somewhere, but i don't have any contact numbers for them. and they don't care about her anyway. i'm the only one she has. i don't think she's even contacted them since she came to Vegas."

"ok, we're here." announced the pilot "touching down at Desert Palm."

the second the chopper touched down on the ground outside the hospital, the doors opened and the paramedics rushed Brooke in, announcing to the doctors and nurses who came to greet them what the situation was, and how they had briefly lost her, but brought her back. feeling helpless Sara just followed them. there was no way that she was going to let Brooke out of sight.

"i'm sorry miss, you can't come any further. you'll have to wait here. i'll come and let you know as soon as we have her settled. you family?"

"no, i'm a friend. she doesn't have any family." not any that care about her anyway she added silently to herself.

"ok. listen if you want to go down to the canteen and get yourself a cup of coffee or something, and i'll let you know when i know something. i'm afraid it's probably gonna be a while." the nurse told her.

"it's ook, i'd rather stay here if you don't mind."

"no problem, there's a seat just over there, i'll come and update you as soon as possible ok."

"thank you."

the nurse went back into the trauma room where Brooke was and where the doctors were looking after. "ok what have we got here? the shoulder needs to be put back, and oh dear." when he saw the glass that was still sticking out of her stomach. "ok, can someone call theater and let them know we're on our way up with an 18 year old girl with glass stuck in her stomach. we need to get up there as soon as possible. ok everyone lets move. the family here yet?"

"no." said the nurse "she doesn't have any. a friend by the name of Sara Sidle is outside though. she came in with her."

"ok, let her know where we're taking her, and see if you can find ut how this happened. ok everyone let's move. the sooner we get up there the better." the doctor said.

immediately everyone sprung into action. they knew that this was going to be touch and go, and the sooner they got the girl into theater the better. the nurse went outside and found Sara sitting down with her head in her hands, tears streaming down her face. she went towards her. "Sara?"

"yes, is Brooke ok? can i see her?"

"i'm afraid not. listen they've had to take her up to theater. they need to remove the glass from her stomach, and they can't really do that down here. and they also have to manipulate her shoulder back into place. i need to ask you what happened."

"why?"

"because she has quite a large piece of glass sticking out of her stomach, and she is heavily dehydrated. plus we have a duty to inform the police whenever we suspect something serious has happened. so could you tell me please?" the nurse asked her.

"ok. but you don't need to tell the police. they already know. i'm a CSI, i work with them."

"oh i'm sorry, i didn't realise."

"it's ok. Brooke is my friend. i'm the only one she has, and her family don't really care about her. it's why she left them and moved to Vegas. i helped her out a lot, and we had a misunderstanding yesterday morning." wow was it only yesterday Sara thought to herself. it seems like it was a lot earlier than that

"anyway we had a misunderstanding and she took off. she went back to her apartment and packed up her stuff and left, and she wrecked her car on her way out of Vegas, and even though she had injuries she managed to get herself out of the car and walk quite a while, even though she was losing blood and then she collapsed. i mean eventually we found her. we had the whole of our team looking for her, and some of PD. she's gonna be ok right? i mean she's not going to die is she?"

"they're doing the best they can. but the glass was in quite deep, they won't know the full extent until they get into theater. i'm sorry that's all  can tell you right now. i'll let you know as soon as she's in recovery. do you need me to call anyone?"

"no it's ok. i need to call my friends and let them know what's going on. they'll be worried."

"are you sure? i mean i can call them for you."

"no it's ok. i need some fresh air anyway. erm, where should i wait?"

"you can go to the waiting room, it's just down the corridor, but you'll have to call your friends from outside ok. it's just cell phones can sometimes interfere with our equipment."

"oh right, of course no problem." Sara replied. "and thank you."

"you're welcome." and with that the nurse walked away leaving Sara alone again.


after a few minutes, Sara walked out towards the exit, and rang Gil's cell phone.
Gil answered after the first ring...
"Sara, are you ok? how's Brooke?"
"she's in theater now. they don't even know if she's gonna make it." Sara was fighting hard not to cry again.
"do you want us to come to the hospital? we're not that far away."
"are you sure? i mean you don't have to."
"we'll be there as soon as we can ok. i'm just gonna let everyone know. where will you be?"
"in the waiting room, just ask at reception, i'm sure they'll be able to tell you where it is. i wasnt quite listening when the nurse told me."
"ok, we'll be there as soon as we can. and Sara..."
"yeah?"
"she's going to be ok. she's a fighter, she'll get through this."
"i hope so." and with that Sara hung up the phone, went back inside and after asking for directions made her way towards the waiting room.


"ok people. we've got an 18 year old girl with a severe injury to her stomach and the piece of glass is still inside her. the wound looks quite deep so we're gonna have to be careful. she's already arrested once on the way over here in the chopper, we don't want that to happen again. i need more light here."

"ok, here we go easy does it" said the surgeon as he slowly removed the peice of glass from Brooke's stomach. once free the machines monitoring her breathing and heartrate started beeping, and after a few seconds she flatlined, and a loud long beeping sound could be heard, and she kept on bleeding out.

"dammit. ok paddles quickly people. i need more suction over here."

the surgeon and the doctors worked tirelessly to get her back.

"come on." said the doctor quietly "come on" he shocked her again, and the nurse continued with CPR.

"come on Brooke, come back to us. you're not dying, not today"

"beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppp"

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« Reply #51 on: June 11, 2009, 08:27 AM »

a massive thank you to everyone who has reviewed this story so far, it's what keeps me writing.

Great, you made me cry.

sorry, although i was tearing up as i wrote it. Wink

the next couple of chapters will be posted soon i promise. i have just gotta finish writing them.


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ok, here's the next chapter. hope ya like it.....

previously....
"dammit. ok paddles quickly people. i need more suction over here."

the surgeon and the doctors worked tirelsessly to get her back.

"come on." said the doctor quietly. "come on" he shocked her again, and the nurse continued with CPR.

"come on Brooke, come back to us. you're not dying, not today."

"beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppp"

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Chapter 16

i was surrounded by light but i couldn't see. i could hear someone calling my name, but i couldn't work out who. the voice sounded familiar i just didn't know why. i felt peaceful, the pain i was in seemed to have gone away, and i was grateful for it. i didn't exactly know where i was either, but i wasn't scared. i was finally at peace, and had stopped fighting... well.... everything. everything i had fought during my life was gone. i knew there was only one explanation- i must be dead. now if only i could figure out who the voice belonged to....

"Brooke." the voice continued to whisper "Brooke. this way Brooke. that's it keep going. follow my voice."

i don't know why i trusted the voice, it could have been leading me anywhere. but i knew in my heart that i had heard it before, i must trust it. slowly it dawned on me where i knew the voice from and why i knew it.

"Grams? is that you?" i continued to follow the voice, and i found her.

"Grams! it's so good to see you. but how are you here? you died. you died years ago."

"hello Brooke." she said enveloping her grandaughter in a tight hug. "you're all grown up now."

"Grams, how? what? why? how?"

"you had an accident, and passed out in the middle of nowhere. but they found you. she found you, and took you to the hospital. she refused to let go of your hand. she only let go when she had to. you arrested on the operating table. they're trying to save you right now."

"she? who's she? who's they? Grams i don't understand. i mean you're dead. and if i'm here i'm dead too."

"you're not dead yet sweetheart, just in limbo, you have a choice- to fight back and live and go back to her, or simply give up."

"Grams, who are you talking about? i have no-one back there. who is this person you keep refering to?" and what choice? i'm tired of fighting, i've been fighting all my life, and i'm tired of it."

"come on Brooke, you know who i'm talking about. she was there for you, she helped you. you have to fight to go back to her, it's not your time yet."

"it wasn't your time either, but you died. you were supposed to still be there when i turned eighteen, and when i turn twenty-one. but you weren't and you're not gonna be. i don't wanna fight anymore Grams, what's the point when there's no-one to fight to go back to. why can't i just stay here?"

"because it's not your time. and Sara is never going to forgive herself if anything happens to you. she went looking for you after you ran away. she found you and refused to let go of your hand, right up until the very last second when she had to. you really believe that no-one cares for you back there? do you really believe that?"

"you've got it wrong Grams. Sara doesn't care for me. maybe at one time she pretended to, or maybe she really did i don't know. what i do know, is that you're talking a load of rubbish right now- no offense. Sara didn't come after me, she let me disappear, and it's good that she did. now she won't be hurt, when i die, or rather now that i'm dead."

"you really believe that Brooke? come on, i wanna show you something...."

Grams took Brooke's hand and they began walking.

"where are we?" Brooke asked.

"we're at the hospital, through those doors is the operating room where the doctors are still trying to save you. but we're not going there. you need to see something."

in a second they were in another part of the hospital. they passed through a couple of doors until they reached one that said 'family waiting room'.

Brooke was confused. "Grams why are we here? i already know that room is empty, you don't need to show me that."

"just go in and take a look. i'll be right behind you." Brooke hesitated "go on." her Grams told her "it's ok"

Brooke stepped through the door, and her Grams immediately followed. "see" she told her granddaughter. "she never gave up on you. she saved you, more than once. she's not going anywhere. you're her friend Brooke, she's never going to give up on you- not now, not ever. you have to fight to go back to her. make things right. mend your friendship with each other. you have to fight Brooke!"

Brooke was silent. behind them the door opened, and more people came in. she didn't recognise any of them, but Sara did. she looked up at the older woman, smiled slightly and said "thanks for being here Catherine."

"hey it's not a problem, the others are on their way, and Lindsey is just outside getting some coffee, she'll be here in a bit. are you ok?"

"not really. it's bad Catherine, it's really bad. i just feel so helpless. i can't do anything. it's been ages already, and i don't even know how she's doing, no-one will tell me anything."

"hey, it's ok. we're all here for you no matter what. and when Brooke gets better, we'll be there for her too, any time day or night. we'll be there."

"i know. it's just..... if i hadn't have called her to tell her i was running late, or if i hadn't been running late and met her when i was supposed to none of this would ever have happened, and she wouldn't be in this mess right now. this is all my fault."

"none of that Sara" Catherine said sternly "this is not your fault. it was an accident, but it is not your fault. no-one is to blame here, it just happened. you will both get through this. she's gonna be fine Sara."

"see." my Grams said "she does care about you, otherwise she wouldn't be here, or blaming herself for what happened to you. she's scared Brooke, she's really scared. you know what you have to do. you have to go back. you have to go back and fight. fight to live. go!"

"this sucks!" i said. "i just get to see you again, and now i have to go, and grieve for you all over again. it isn't fair. i'll never even see you."

"you don't have to see me to know i'm there. i'm always with you Brooke, i always have and i always will be. me being dead and you going back doesn't change that. i'll always be near you. now go, i love you sweetheart." my Grams said.

"i love you too Grams." and with that i gave her a big hug again, and once we let go i could feel myself being drawn back. i knew i had to, even if part of me didn't want to.


"CLEAR!" the doctor shouted and shocked Brooke again.

"beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppp, beeeepp, beep, beep, beep"



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previously....
"i love you too Grams." and with that i gave her a big hug again, and once we had let go i could feel myself being drawn back. i knew i had to, even if part of me didn't want to.

"CLEAR!" the doctor shouted and shocked Brooke again.

"beeeeeeeeeeeppppp, beeeepp, beep, beep, beep"


Chapter 17.

"ok, we've got her back, good work everyone."

the surgeon then proceeded to commence stictching up Brooke's wound, that only a while ago had had a piece of glass in it. once she was all stitched up, and the anaesthetic had been removed, they wheeled her into recovery, where they would be able to monitor her progress.

the surgeon, after cleaning himself up, went with one of the nurses to fill Brooke's family in on what had happened, and what it meant now.

they walked into the family room, where they nurse had told Sara to wait for news.

"family for Brooke Tyler?" the surgeon asked.

"yes. is she ok?" Sara immediately asked.

"well, the operation was complicated and we lost her a couple of times due to the amount of blood, but we managed to get her back. she's in recovery right now. when they find her a bed in ICU you'll be able to see her. these first twenty-four hours are critical, but she's a fighter, she should be ok. i'll let you have some time." the surgeon told them, and then left the room.

tears were running down Sara's face, and she was powerless to stop them- not a thing that Sara particularly liked being.

"she's gonna be ok Sara. you heard what they said; she's a fighter she'll be fine." Catherine said, trying to reassure Sara.

"i hope so. i just feel so helpless you know. she's in recovery fighting for her life and there's nothing i can do. she's been fighting her whole life Catherine, she was supposed to stop when she came to Vegas. her days of being invisible and fighting and disappearing were meant to be over. but they're not, not yet. she has to keep fighting, and i don't even know if she has the strength to anymore." Sara said, tears still streaming down her face.

Catherine just looked at her friend, and pulled her into a hug. "she'll be ok" she kept saying. "this is her last fight. she'll get through this and then you guys can talk and work things out. she'll be ok."

Lindsey, who had returned with coffees earlier, just sat in a chair on the other side of the room, watching her mom comfort Sara. she was amazed that her mom was able to keep it together. but she knew her mom was gonna be strong for Sara, they both were. they'd help her get through this, and when the time came, they'd help Brooke too. she put her hand in her pocket to retrieve her iPod- maybe some music would help distract them until they could go and see Brooke. she pulled out her iPod, when something else fell out of her pocket. she bent down to pick it up, and as she bought it closer to her face, she realised just what it was. it was Brooke's necklace that they had found earlier, the same necklace that Sara identified as Brooke's, the one her Grams gave her before she died, the same one that Lindsey had held onto until Sara was able to give it back to Brooke.

Lindsey got up out of her chair and walked the few steps over to her mom and Sara.

"Sara." she said tentitively "erm, this fell out of my pocket. you should go give it to Brooke when you see her. i'm sure she'll want it back, and i know you would like to give it to her."

Sara looked up at Lindsey, and then down to see what she was holding in her hand. taking the necklace from Lindsey, and holding it in her hand she whispered "thanks Linds. you should go home, get some sleep, both of you. really, i'll be fine by myself, and the guys will be here soon anyway. really, i'm fine"

"we are not leaving you here. we're staying. we promised we would and we will" seeing the look on Sara's face, Catherine immediately said "no arguments!"

Sara smiled. she secretly liked the fact that her friends weren't going to leave her, and then the smile disappeared when she remembered that Brooke didn't have this. she only had Sara, and that was only if she'd let Sara in and see her.

a few minutes later, the guys arrived and walked through the waiting room door, arms full of coffee, and doughnuts and pizza and even more coffee.

"figured we'd be here for a while" Greg said, explaining why they had so much stuff with them.

"we figured you'd get hungry at some point, and well we knew you wouldn't leave, and well... hospital food sucks and hospital coffee sucks so we thought we'd bring you some proper food. you know stuff you'd actually eat and not be disgusted by" Nick explained smiling a bit, trying to lighten the mood.

"thanks guys, i'm starving!" Lindsey said, walking quickly up to the guys to grab a bag of food.

"Lindsey Willows!" Catherine half shouted at her daughter.

"what i'm starving. what do you expect i'm a teenager, i need food. come on you have to admit, we need comfort food, which means junk food, which means this, not the hospital . come on mom i know you and Sara are hungry to. we haven't eaten since that diner we went to quite a while ago, and we only had coffee and a couple of bits of cake. come on lighten up."

"Lindsey, i can't believe you just....." Catherine began to say

"mom!" Lindsey interrupted "listen, Brooke might still be a while, we need to keep our strength up, and you never know this comfort food might distract us, and ergo time will go by a lot faster ergo we'll see Brooke sooner, or well Sara will; plus we'll have had something to eat, so we'll feel a bit better."

"she has a point Catherine. plus you know i am kinda hungry myself" Sara said smiling

"ok, let's dig in." Catherine said relenting.

"you guys did get a vegetarian pizza right?" Sara asked.

"yes, her you go." Gil said handing her the pizza. "bon appetite"

they all dug in to the various pizzas the guys had bought from their favourite pizza place, and drank countless cups of coffee, and chatted to each other. for a while they forgot that they were in a hospital, it felt like they were just in the break room at the lab, chatting, laughing and enjoying each others company before their shift.

a few minutes later reality came back, in the form of a nurse who informed Sara that Brooke was now in recovery, and doing well.

"she's still in the critical period, but she's doing well. just let her rest ok, and only one at a time. i'll take you to her now if you want?"

"yeah thanks. you guys can come if you want." Sara said to her friends.

"you'll have to wait outside, but there are plenty of chairs up there, and space to finish eating you pizza and drinking your coffee, just don't take it into the actual ICU. really i should take it off you, but i know the food here sucks, so go ahead. i won't tell." the nurse said smiling.

"thanks." Nick said sheepishly.

"ok let's go" Sara said. and with that they followed the nurse out of the 'family waiting room' towards the elevator that would take them to the ICU.

a few minutes later, Sara was walking through the doors to the ICU, washed her hands with the anti-bacterial soap by the door, and walked towards the bed that Brooke was lying in. she looked so small in the bed, with tubes running down and into various parts of her arm to keep her hydrated, and to account for the amount of blood she had lost.

Sara pulled up a chair for herself, and sat down, taking one of Brooke's hands in both of hers. she looked at the girl lying in the bed. she knew it was Brooke, and she knew that she would be ok, but on some level it didn't even look like Brooke. guess that was just how things were in hospitals.

"hey Brooke, it's me Sara. listen i know you might not be able to hear me right now, but i'm gonna say this anyway, and then when you wake up i'll say it all over again because you need to hear this ok. listen i'm sorry, i am so sorry for what happened to you. you've had enough pain and disappointment in your life to last you a lifetime, and i'm sorry i added to it, even though i promised i wouldn't. i wasn't blowing you off before, when i called you. i was running late on a case, and i called you to let you know that i was on my way, i was just running a little bit late, but you hung up before i could fully explain. and i don't blame you- if i was in your shoes i would've reacted the same way. i did actually a few times whilst i was growing up. i'd be promised something, and it never happened, so i know why you reacted the way you did.

it's ok, i'm not angry with you. if anything i'm angry at myself for making you feel that way, and i'm sorry, i am so sorry. but you have to listen to me now ok. you have to fight now ok, you have to fight to wake up so we can work this out. i know you've been fighting your whole life and it's not fair to ask you to fight again, but this is the last one ok, you only need to fight this one last time and then that's it, no more fighting ok.

but Brooke you have to wake up. i need you to wake up. you need to know that you're special and unique and smart and funny. you can do whatever you want Brooke, you can be whomever you want to be. you can do anything, be anything. but you need to wake up.

when we were looking for you out there, a friend of mine found something that belongs to you, and i figured you'd want it back. i know how important it is to you, and when you're feeling better i'll put it on for you, or you can put it on yourself, whatever."

Sara released Brooke's hand from hers, and pulled the necklace from her pocket and gently placed it in Brooke's right hand, and closed her hand around it. she then held Brooke's left hand in both of hers, and squeezed gently to let Brooke know she was still there, and that she wasn't going to leave her.

a couple of minutes later she thought she felt Brooke squeezing her hand, and a few seconds later ...........


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previously....
Sara released Brooke's hand from hers, and pulled the necklace from her pocket and gently placed it in Brooke's right hand, and closed her hand around it. she then held Brooke's left hand in both of hers, and squeezed it gently to let Brooke know that she was still there, and that she wasn't going to leave her.

a couple of minutes later she thought she felt Brooke squeezing her hand, and a few seconds later.........


Chapter 18.

and a few seconds later she was sure. she felt Brooke squeezing her hand again, even though her eyes were still closed. Sara pressed the buzzer alarm in Brooke's room, to let the doctor know. the doctor who was taking care of Brooke came in the room almost immediately

"She squeezed my hand. the first time i thought i imagined it, but she just did it again. that means she's going to be ok doesn't it?" Sara said, trying to hide the hint of excitement in her voice.

"we won't know anything for sure until she wakes up, and that could still be a while yet. but the fact she has responded is definitely a good sign. let us just do some quick tests on her ok. i'll let you know when we're done and you can come back in and see her ok?" the doctor told Sara.

"ok. i better let the others know what's happening anyway."

before she left she gave Brooke's hand one last squeeze and whispered to her "i'll be back soon, i promise. i'm just going to be right outside. keep fighting Brooke." and with that Sara left the room, to go back to the waiting room to fill her friends in.

"Sara! is Brooke ok? how is she? what's happening?" all her friends asked at the same time.

Sara had to smile at the concern her friends showed for her friend, even though they didn't know her.

"yeah, she's fine. the operation went well. she's asleep at the moment, she still hasn't fully come round yet. but she squeezed my hand, twice. so the doctors came in and are running some tests on her now to see how she responds. but i mean it's good, it's a good thing that she responded to me, so she's gonna be ok. i mean she's not fully out of the woods yet, but she's doing really good." Sara informed them.

"that's great news!" Lindsey said, walking over to give Sara a big hug.

"thanks Linds. listen, it might still be a while before she wakes up, you guys should go home. you've done so much already. go, i'll be fine."

"Sara, we're staying and that's final." Catherine sternly told her friend.

"but what about Lindsey, doesn't she have school tomorrow?"

"mom and me have already talked about it. i'm having my work sent home for a few days, mom rang them earlier and told them i wouldn't be in for at least the next few days. called it a 'family emergency' and i wouldn't be in. it'll be fine, i'm already a bit ahead anyway, and i can keep up with the work at home, or here."

"Lindsey, i can't ask you to miss school."

"but you're not asking, we're telling. really the school was fine about it, they were really understanding, and i'm not exactly lying to them am i? i mean you guys are the closest thing to family i've got after mom and grandma, so ......"

"thanks Linds." Sara said smiling. "as long as you're sure?"

"will you stop asking us that? of course we're sure. i wouldn't have rung the school otherwise. and it's not going to be happening too often anyway. and to be honest Lindsey and i could use some quality mother-daughter time anyway, whether it's at the hospital or not." Catherine explained to her friend.

"ok. thanks you guys. you wanna come back with me and see her? i know it's only one at a time, but there's a window next to the door you can see her through, kinda like when ......" Sara suddenly trailed off and went quiet as she remembered the last time they were in  there.

"kinda like when i got shot you mean?" Jim said. "it's ok Sara. i'm ok and Brooke's gonna be ok. now what do you say, we go and see the little lady?"

"ok. oh but don't call her that. she'd slap you before you could finish that name." Sara smiled and laughed.

"ok. just Brooke it is." Jim responded.

"let's go."

a few minutes later they were all outside Brooke's recovery room, minus Sara who had already gone in. the doctors were just finishing performing the various tests, when Sara walked through the door.

"so what's the news?" Sara asked impatiently.

"well, it's all good. i mean she's not fully outside the critical period yet, but if she's responding this early it's only a good thing. keep talking to her, it'll help. just don't try to get her to wake up before she or her body are ready. that would only cause harm and hinder her recovery in the long run. i'll be back to check on her in a while ok. you can relax a little bit now Sara, she's should be fine." the doctor told her, giving her a reassuring smile.

"thank you." Sara replied simply.

Sara walked over to the lone chair next to the left side of Brooke's bed, sat down and once again held Brooke's left hand in both of hers.

"you're gonna be ok Brooke." Sara said softly "the doctor said you are gonna be fine. so you just rest now, and concentrate on getting better ok. and then when you're feelng up to it, we'll talk about what's gonna happen ok. you know, maybe you should move into my place for a little bit, just until you get fully back on your feet. or you can stay as long as you want, there's plenty of room, but we can figure that out later ok.

Brooke i am so sorry. i will never forgive myself for putting you here, and driving you away. i didn't mean to i promise. it's just on the day you left, i was running late with a case, and i lost track of time, so i thought i'd ring you to let you know i was on my way, i was just going to be a bit later than planned. i don't know, maybe i worded it wrong, actually i probably did, but i'm so sorry. i let you down, and you deserve to be mad at me. i knew you're history, and the  that yuo've had to put up with, and being constantly let down by your family, and i added to it. i promised you things were going to be different when yuo came to Vegas, but i ended up doing what you're family had been doing to you for years. making you think you were nobody special, and that you weren't good enough or worth anything. but they were so wrong- you are special Brooke. yuo're smart, you're funny, you are good enough. you're good enough to do whatever you want. just hold onto that ok.  hold on to the fact that you're special and unique and you do make a difference, and you're definietely not invisible ok.

you just hold on now Brooke ok. i'm not going anywhere. i'm not leaving you, so you're just gonna have to deal with that. listen there's a few of my friends outside who want to meet you ok, and talk to you. but we're only allowed in here one at a time at the minute, so i'm gonna go just outside this door, and let them in one by one to talk to you and keep you company ok? ok."

giving Brooke's hand one last squeeze, she left the room in order so that one by one her friends could come in and talk to her.

"hey. do any of you want to go in? i'm sure she's love to hear you voices. and then we can introduce you guys properly  when she wakes up."

"yeah, i'll go." said Lindsey, "if that's ok?"

"of course it is. it might help hearing another teenager's voice. take your time Linds. stay and talk to her as long as you want."

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ok guys, here is the next chapter...

previously...
"hey do any of you want to go in? i'm sure she'd love to hear your voices. and then we can introduce you guys properly when she wakes up."

"yeah, i'll go." said Lindsey, "if that's ok?"

"of course it is. it might help hearing another teenager's voice. take your time Linds. stay and talk to her for as long as you want."

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Chapter 19.
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Lindsey entered Brooke's room, from where she had been waiting with the rest of the CSI's, and closed the door behind her. she went straight towards the vacated seat that Sara had left behind on the left-hand side of Brooke's hospital bed. Lindsey had to admit to herself, that Brooke looked a little better than she did when she had first met her. mind you, she no longer had a piece of glass sticking out of her stomach, so that probably helped.

she sat down on the chair, and even though she didn't even know Brooke, that didn't stop her from taking her hand. what surprised her most, was that it didn't feel weird or uncomfortable, it just felt natural.

"hey there Brooke. my name's Lindsey. i'm kinda a friend of Sara's. you see my mom, works with Sara at the crime lab. and over the years they've gotten closer, and we're all kinda a family now. it's a weird one, but there you go. i guess what i'm trying to say is, you're part of that family now. i guess you have been since you came to Vegas, maybe even before then, maybe from when you first trusted Sara and opened up to her. none of us know the full story about you, but we know enough. so i guess what i'm trying to say is welcome to the family. we're all here for you, we always will be.

you're not on your own anymore. you don't have to fight anything or anyone. believe me i know what that's like. you probably don't believe me right? what would i have to fight against, i have a mom that loves me and cares about me. but it was different when i was younger. i lost my dad a few years ago, and although i will never fully get over it, i've moved on. and when it first happened, i rebelled for a bit. i fought against my mom, my friends, the teachers at school, and basically the world in general. when i needed my mom the most she wasn't there, or at least to me she wasn't there as often as she should have been. she worked a lot, and i guess that was her way of coping with my dad's death. they'd been separated, and eventually divorced for a while, but she still found it hard. she never stopped caring for him. i guess i just acted out, because i knew i'd get her attention. and then we sat down and talked, really talked, about everything. and we've just got closer everyday since. she's not just my mom anymore, she's my best friend. i know that must sound weird, and maybe even a bit cliche, but it's the truth.

Sara cares about you a lot Brooke. you should have seen her, when she first realised you'd disappeared. she tried calling and texting, but didn't get any answer. she went to your apartment and found your cell phone, and she realised that you were running again. she felt so guilty, i can't even begin to tell you how guilty. she had the whole of Las Vegas PD looking for you, as well as the grave shift team at the crime lab. she thought i might be able to help coz of the whole teenager thing in common, so she got my mom to come home and bring me to the lab to help.

you have to wake up soon Brooke, because it doesn't matter what you think, Sara really cares about you, we all do. she hasn't even gone home yet. she's stayed here since she brought you to the hospital. she never let go of your hand until she absolutely had to. she's felt do guilty and so helpless, and she truly believes that this is all her fault. you have to wake up Brooke. but you wake up when you're ready ok, not before then, or you'll do more harm than good to yourself and to Sara. she's never going to fully forgive herself for this, but at least when you come back to us, maybe she'll be able to forgive herself a little bit.

listen, i'm gonna go now. but there's plenty of people who want to see you. so i'm gonna go so that they can come in individually to say hi and talk to you ok. you just hang on in there. we'll all still be here whenever you decide to wake up. just don't take too long ok, the sooner you wake up, the sooner Sara will stop feeling so guilty, and then you two can talk properly and work your friendship out ok.

see you soon Brooke."

Lindsey then got up, and after giving a final squeeze to Brooke's left hand, she let go and walked towards the door and walked out of the room, leaving Brooke on her own momentarily. she knew either her mom, or one of the team would go in there shortly after her, it was only a question of who.

Catherine saw her daughter walking out of Brooke's room, and waited patiently for her to come back in to the room where she and the rest of the team were waiting, observing Brooke. they hadn't heard what Lindsey had said, and Catherine was dying to know if her daughter was ok.

"Lindsey honey, are you ok?" she asked her.

"yeah mom, i'm fine. it wasn't too bad actually. i think she heard me. she didn't do anything, but i think she heard me. listen, why don't one of you guys go in? it's not that bad honestly. just talk to her like she's awake. she may not be awake, but she'll hear you. it's strangely kinda comforting, just being able to get things off your chest."

Lindsey looked at Sara and said "she's gonna be fine Sara. and you know what, being in there talking to her has just confirmed to me, that we're gonna be great friends when she wakes up. she's never gonna feel alone again. not with you or any of us being around, and being her friends, and just being there for her no matter what. we're just gonna be adding one more to the family."

Lindsey smiled at Sara, and Sara slowly smiled back at Lindsey, knowing she was right.


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previously....
"........ we're just gonna be adding one more to the family."

Lindsey smiled at Sara, and Sara slowly smiled back at Lindsey, knowing she was right.



Chapter 20.
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as dysfunctional as it seemed, they were all a family. it was kinda weird, but at the same time, it was the only thing that made sense. they always had eachother's backs no matter what the time or the place- they were there for each other, and they always would be. having Brooke around certainly wouldn't change that- in fact it just meant adding to it, and having one more person to look out for, who would look out for you. Sara had never had that, not once growing up, and neither had Brooke. but she would have now, it was never too late to have a family looking out for you, even if they weren't related to you by blood. after all, "friends are the family we choose for ourselves", and that was certainly true.

Sara smiled to herself. "are you sure you're only 16 Linds?"

"yeah. believe me she is. i was there. i can't believe my baby can learn to drive now."

"mom! i told you never to call me that. especially in public, i'm not a baby anymore!"

they all laughed.

"oh yeah, she's definitely 16." said Nick.

"Linds, don't you know by now, that you'll always be my baby girl, just because your older, doesn't mean that will change." Catherine told Lindsey.

"ok, but could you at least stop calling me that ok. especially when we're out in public. please mom?" Lndsey pleaded.

"ok fine, i won't call you a baby anymore." Catherine sighed.

"thank you. so not to pressure you guys or anything, but which of you wants to go in next? it's not scary or uncomfortable or anything, it's kinda calming actually. it's not as if you're talking to yourself, she can hear you, she just can't respond much at the moment. honest it's fine." Lindsey told them.

"i'll go." Jim said quietly. "she kinda reminds me a little bit of Ellie, only i'm not being spat at, or screamed at." Jim said smiling sadly.

"sure, take as long as you want. say whatever you want, we won't be ablr to hear you anyway. whatever you say will stay between you and Brooke." Sara explained.

Jim got up from where he had been sitting, and walked out the door, into Brooke's room, and walked over to the chair that had recently been vacated by Lindsey.

"hey Brooke." Jim said sitting down on the chair. "you might not remember, but we met briefly before. remember, you accidently bumped into me at LVPD, whilst waiting for Sara. and then she called you and you ran off, and then all this happened. listen i don't know exactly how this happened, or how you came to be where you did, where we found you, but it wasn't your fault ok, you have to know that. nobody blames you, in fact mostly i think Sara blames herself, but she has no need to. no-one's to blame for what happened, it just did.

i have a daughter, you know. her name's Ellie, and she's a few years older than you. she was a great kid, she was so smart and funny and sweet. she was the cutest kid. i don't know what happened really, maybe i wasn't home enough, or maybe it was just teenage rebellion, but she turned away from me. overnight she became someone else. she got into drugs, and alcohol, and partying and stripping. i haven't even seen her in a couple of years. i mean i've tried, but she doesn't wanna see me. the last time i saw her, she was in LA, and a friend of hers was killed, and so she called me and asked me for help. that's the first time in years she's asked me for anything. i actually thought i could help her, get her into a programme, help her get her life back on track, but i never heard from her. at least not until i got shot on the job. and that's the last time i saw her, when i was in the same position as you, lying in a hospital bed.

you know, Sara's like another daughter to me. i mean we don't get on all the time, but she's family. they all are. that may sound weird, but we've always got each other's backs, we always will. and when you wake up, we'll be there for you, every step of the way, especially Sara. i think deep down she knows that no-one's to blame, but for now, she's still blaming herself. but see that's why you've gotta wake up soon, sweetheart. Brooke you need to wake up, so Sara knows you're ok. she's had so much heartache in her life, she's lost people she cared about, she can't lose you too.

you know, you kinda remind me a little bit of Sara. perhaps that's why she wanted to help you so much. she may not show it, and you may not believe it, but she's been through kinda the same thing. she didn't have much of a family growing up either, and from what Sara's told me, you haven't either. i guess she wanted to mke a difference to your life, before it was too late. Sara found her family, but not until she came to Vegas. she had no-one for years, and i don't think, actually i know, she doesn't want the same for you. she knows you deserve better in your life, and in her own way, that's what she's trying to give you, something better, a better life.

listen you may not believe me, and i suspect Lindsey told you the same thing, Sara cares a lot for you Brooke. but you need to wake up so you can both sort things out, and get your friendship back on track ok. can you do that? ok, i'm gonna go now, and leave you to think about stuff, and give you a bit of peace and quiet. but no doubt one of the family will be in in a bit to talk to you. i don't know who it will be, but please listen to them ok. none of us are going anywhere until we know you're ok. Sara's just outside, with the rest of our dysfunctional family, she's not going anywhere, none of us are, and neither are you, you hear me Brooke? you're not going anywhere. so i guess what i'm trying to say is: welcome to the family Brooke Tyler, however dysfunctional we may be...."

and with that Jim stood up, kissed Brooke lightly on her forehead, and walked out of the room, back to the rest of the team.

"hey guys. Lindsey's right you know. it is kinda calming talking to her, you can say anything, and know she's listening. so who's next?" Jim asked looking at them.

"i guess it's my turn." Catherine said. "just keep an eye on Lindsey for me would you? just while i'm in there"

"mom! i'm not going anywhere, besides, it's not one way glass, you'll be able to see me, and the rest of us if you look our way, we just won't be able to hear you that's all. it keeps it private that way. mom, it'll be fine. go talk to her, she'll listen." Lindsey reassured her mom.

"ok, i'll be back in a bit."

"take as long as you want mom, we're not gonna go anywhere. i'm not gonna go anywhere. we're all gonna stay here ok."

Lindsey walked over to her mom, and gave her a reassuring hug, realising that something else was going on with her mom, something she wasn't going to talk about, but somehow Lindsey knew. "i'm right here mom, i'm not going anywhere ok." Lindsey gave her mom one more hug, and a squeeze of her hand, before letting go so her mom could go and talk to Brooke.

"hey Brooke, i'm Catherine, Lindsey's mom." Catherine said sitting down.

"i don't know what Lindsey's told you about herself, or me for that matter, or if she even has, but she's my only daughter, my baby girl, and she's my best friend in the whole world. i know it must sound strange to you, hearing a mom say that her daughter is her best friend, but it's true. Lindsey's the best thing that ever happened to me. and the rest of our dysfunctional family is a close second, and i guess, actually i know, that that now includes one more person, and that's you. you're part of our family now Brooke, and nothing is gonna change that, not now, not ever. you need to know that.

i didn't always have this. i used to work in a club as an exotic dancer, and after going to night school, and getting a qualification, i joined the Las Vegas Crime Lab. one of the best things i ever did-i get to help people, i give a voice for those who can't speak for themselves.

Lindsey's dad, died a few years ago, and when she rang me to say that she was trapped in a car that was sinking, i panicked. i was so scared i would lose my baby girl, but i didn't. we grew apart for a bit, but then, i don't know we talked about everything, and since then we've just got closer and closer. i know it must be hard for you to listen to this right now, especially considering your family background, but know this, you are a part of this family now, and you will never be alone again.

just so you know, Sara didn't tell us everything, she only told us what we needed to know in order to fnd you. she never gave up on you, not once, and i need you to hold her to that now. don't give up on her ok, she never gave up on you, she refused to stop, until you were found, even if it meant hurting herself in the process. she knows what its like to have no-one to believe in you, to have no-one to fight for you, to make you think you are worth something. she was in the foster-care system when she was a kid, she had nowhere to call home, no family to look out for her. that was until she came to Vegas. Vegas became her home over time, and we became her family, she became part of ours. and now you're a part of that family.

just hang in there ok Brooke. and when you wake up, we'll all be here for you, every step of the way. day or night, you need anything, you just let us know, and we'll be there. Sara will be there. so you just rest now, and we'll talk later. ok, bye."

Catherine gave Brooke's hand one last squeeze, and then left the room, leaving Brooke on her own temporarily, knowing that another one of the family would be in in a little while. she then entered the room where the rest of the team were, and immediately walked over and enveloped her only daughter in a big hug.

she knew that Lindsey was ok, and that she wasn't going anywhere, but she just needed a reassurance. "i'm ok." she said. "i just realised i need to spend more time with my daughter, and less time at the lab, that's all. i guess i just experienced some flashbacks i thought i'd dealt with and locked away. i'm ok now really. but maybe one of you guys should go in and talk to her, or sit with her. i don't think it's a good idea to leave her without company for too long."



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